I previously wrote about my pregnancy with my son but I have not fully went into to detail on what I went through my entire pregnancy. I have received messages asking me questions but I could only answer what I could at time due to me not being ready to talk about it. Now I am ready to touch on my story and make other mommies aware of what we women go through for the entirety of our pregnancy. Me and my husband have talked about having one more baby, we wanted to try for a boy but with my health becoming worse, my body and being stressed I just knew I would not be able to become pregnant so I put the thought in the back of my head. I attended my normal check up with doctor and it was normal routine checkup but also the day I found out I was pregnant. Emotions, Excitement and fear came all over me I had to take a picture to show my husband because we could not believe it. The beginning of my pregnancy was smooth sailing but I also dealt with Type 2 diabetes and hypertension, which can be all around dangerous for the baby. However, I made sure I followed the doctors’ orders as much as possible. Everyday became different some days I would be okay and the next day I would be struggling. The constant having to wake up every morning taking insulin, medication and eating right throughout the day was even more stressful on my pregnancy.
Third Trimester everything went downhill, I literally became a resident of the hospital due to my baby not growing, blood pressure spiking plus more. This caused even more stress and I wanted them to take him out of me every time I went to the hospital but I held him as long as I could all the way up to the date that I was induced. I have had issues in the past with my pregnancy but never like this. When I finally delivered, I thought things would be great and I would be able to enjoy my Babyboy. Nevertheless, little did I know I would have a seizure, black out and had to be resuscitated I now cannot remember parts of giving birth to my son. My doctor made sure I was taken care of through my entire pregnancy, during delivery and thereafter. I read and watched so many movies of women dying on the table, but I just could not leave my family, God was not ready for me just yet. Now we are 4 months into Postpartum and although I have days were I am suffering from losing my hair, being emotional and so much more I’ve realize I have giving life to our miracle, the baby I prayed for and the baby I never knew I could have. I want to thank my husband for being by my side the entire time, even when I wanted to give up he was there. I want to pray for all mommy’s that may have similar experiences or do not have the support throughout this journey especially with postpartum. Please do not stay silent ask for help or seek help if need be.